Crossroads...again! I definitely feel that God is calling...or maybe just nudging me in a different direction, although I really don't know what...
---I am considering "applying" for a full-time church ministry job which would allow me to only work one job because I think it pays well enough that I could support my family
---I am also considering returning to a type of work I did before...it is something that I love, and something that pays well...more than most church pastor jobs...and has more job security...although, is any job really secure these days?
What I do know is that I cannot...or I need to choose not, to continue to work 7-days a week at two jobs...both of which are intense and stressful most of the time. I have recently learned that I have a tumor growing in an adrenal gland and another in a kidney...I am getting diagnostic testing to decide what needs to be done...although it has taken 2 months to get in to see specialists...and I have insurance!!! The healthcare system in this country is soooo broken. If I have to have surgery...well, all of the above will be put on hold, since it will not be an opportune time to change jobs...not fair to me or to a future employer.
I am praying for God's guidance...sometimes I wish God sent telegrams!
Meanwhile, it is another Friday night and I am trying to work on liturgy and sermon for Sunday...I am on-call this week-end and I already know that I have to work tomorrow. That is the type of thing I'm referring to when I say I can't keep doing this much longer. I really don't have balance in my life...and having balance is something I encourage others to do all the time as a part of "good self care"...ah, practice what you preach!